Dear Cloud,
How has he been doing these day ? Is he fine and enjoying his day ? I miss him everyday, and still imagine that he’s beside me, even I stopped dreaming about him. I don’t want to say that I’m going to move on, because I’m “trying” right now,all these 2 years was pretty hard, and it’s almost 1 year since then, but I still can’t accept the fact that he don’t love me anymore.
How am I going to face him, If I go back. will I able to hang out with my friends anymore If he’s there and in worst scenario she, the one he loved is also there. I’m scared that I can’t hide it. The memories of the old days keep coming as if it’s going to broken If I told myself to accept the truth.
I don’t know why I’m being stubborn, I don’t want him to feel guilty… I want it as my own responsibility as the person who can’t move on. But I keep regretting myself who doesn’t realize how he feel and how I feel back then, and once again it’s too late.
Restart button is not replay button after all.. it’s like the replay button is the only thing on my head, strange isn’t it ? now, I’m scared to talk to him, I’m scared that I might get caught…
Regards,
your chaser .
